Tuesday, May 04, 2010
♥ Some blogging after a long long break!
Wonder if anyone still read or even remember this blog address.. =P
helloooooo!!!! pls give some repond if u r still passing by here!
I have left it rotting for ages and even my browser doesnt have it in its "history" list! Goddess! Felt quite bad... But then again, what can one expect when there is a marvelous thing call facebook? almost 80% of my Internet is spent on there! Kinda scary to think about it.. On how it had dominate my time.
Hah! gonna feel thankful that there is some connection issue or whatsoever that allows me this spare time to drop some words here!
Well, every time i look at my blog title, I feel that I'm so far away from practising that. Living life to the fullest! And I began to ponder if I really did that or have I been wasting my time?
It amazed me by a lot on how different one can change to. Especially from early 20s to mid 20s. In just mere 5 yrs and I think I have change so much! And what causes that? work? Gosh... How can this be affecting me this MUCH? I really wonder..... And the saddest thing of all, what did I get out of it? Almost nothing! Even if there is really something, it ain't gonna be that significant, I guess.
Somehow, it kinda "bought me to senses" that I have been missing out, lossing myself and not being who I was or used to be. Recent conversation with Qq and Yi makes me realise how "bad shape" I'm in. Where is the active me???? omg.... No one believe that I am who I am now because the me in their memory is so different from the me I am now!
And I asked myself, "what have I done to myself!?"
This leave me thinking.. but not a lot of thinking though. God knows what I have been busy with... Time just seem to pass so quickly... and serious thinking is always half done.
Suddenly I have a sense of urgency to do something to myself. Coz I just felt something is terribly wrong with me! Trust me, I am still asking myself this "what do I want". "what have I done wrong". "what's going on with me?"
helloooooo!!!! pls give some repond if u r still passing by here!
I have left it rotting for ages and even my browser doesnt have it in its "history" list! Goddess! Felt quite bad... But then again, what can one expect when there is a marvelous thing call facebook? almost 80% of my Internet is spent on there! Kinda scary to think about it.. On how it had dominate my time.
Hah! gonna feel thankful that there is some connection issue or whatsoever that allows me this spare time to drop some words here!
Well, every time i look at my blog title, I feel that I'm so far away from practising that. Living life to the fullest! And I began to ponder if I really did that or have I been wasting my time?
It amazed me by a lot on how different one can change to. Especially from early 20s to mid 20s. In just mere 5 yrs and I think I have change so much! And what causes that? work? Gosh... How can this be affecting me this MUCH? I really wonder..... And the saddest thing of all, what did I get out of it? Almost nothing! Even if there is really something, it ain't gonna be that significant, I guess.
Somehow, it kinda "bought me to senses" that I have been missing out, lossing myself and not being who I was or used to be. Recent conversation with Qq and Yi makes me realise how "bad shape" I'm in. Where is the active me???? omg.... No one believe that I am who I am now because the me in their memory is so different from the me I am now!
And I asked myself, "what have I done to myself!?"
This leave me thinking.. but not a lot of thinking though. God knows what I have been busy with... Time just seem to pass so quickly... and serious thinking is always half done.
Suddenly I have a sense of urgency to do something to myself. Coz I just felt something is terribly wrong with me! Trust me, I am still asking myself this "what do I want". "what have I done wrong". "what's going on with me?"
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